Today found me back outside. i’m trying to sprinkle physical projects in with the cerebral ones to find some sort of harmony. As i was planting, i kept thinking about this song from my childhood. i would have been a fresh new baby when this came out, but i remember hearing it and singing it … Continue reading
i am weary of carrying old shit around… mine… other people’s. It seems like it should be easier to set burdens down… how hard? Just drop ’em. But no… The sheer weight of it all is exhausting sometimes and i get seriously pissed off when i am blindsided by it. This weekend, i listened to … Continue reading
In 1989; i was using…alcohol more than drugs. Many nights, i’d split a 12 pack with Mr.X and on more than one occasion, i polished one off by myself. Nobody ever called me an addict then…but it certainly runs in my family; we are a clan that self-medicates…that gambles…that overeats. i’ve lived the chaos that … Continue reading
i passed a very nice Christmas. It was the first Christmas in recent memory that had no tether to my father (he called but i didn’t pick up or check voicemail). i replied to a text from my brother. i didn’t call my aunt. i made a purposeful decision to speak to… to touch… the … Continue reading
Those three words… like a salve to me tonight… sleep well slave Would that i could, i’d wing my way there right now to curl up at the foot of His bed (not a thought you are likely to hear me voice in a daylight moment). Yes, Master It’s been years since i heard or … Continue reading
my child got her McJob and lasted nearly a McWeek before Ronald chased her back into the comforting arms of college classes. FINALLY, McDonalds has done some good. Thanks, Ronald. Take some time off, you deserve a break today Shove This Jay-Oh-Bee by Canibus and Biz Markie (From Office Space) Continue reading
K: I hate your dogs. me: my dogs? Your dogs too. K: No… not Derp (we call the one dog “Derp” because he is… well, DERPY) me: Holding up a vintage picture of Jesus with the sacred heart (don’t ask why i had this at hand… i was working on a project) His eye is … Continue reading
