Last night, I stumbled… metaphorically speaking… upon a decades-old crack in my pavement. It seemed like the tiniest split in the earth’s surface at first but it widened and its chasm felt too deep… too dark… she asked if I was okay and all I could say was, “I will be.” And I was, after … Continue reading
So tired i am, but as i prepare for bed, i am thinking of a friend who posted that she was laying in bed with her beloved… whose hand was resting inside her lips… yes… lips. The image she painted with those few words stirred more than my libido… it made my heart smile, because … Continue reading
So I would choose to be with you That’s if the choice were mine to make But you can make decisions too And you can have this heart to break Continue reading
i conjure tonight… black wife-beater and worn blue jeans i hear the metal buckle a belt slips loop after loop in quick succession until it gently snaps air escapes my lungs cheeks flush bitch… mouth takes mouth a soft mane tickles my face before being gathered into a ponytail candlelight licks at the shadows of the … Continue reading
i have a pinterest account. Well, truth be told, i have several. The one i use the most has many boards on all manner of topics, but today… i was reminded of one board in particular. “in my parallel universe… ” i went out to the shed in my back yard earlier today to look for … Continue reading
i’m in therapy. i don’t intend to share all of that here, of course, but i feel it is important to push-pull-drag this out of shadows… to take the secrecy and shame from what ought to be no different than the choice to take a car in for service. It is – as i recently … Continue reading
Those three words… like a salve to me tonight… sleep well slave Would that i could, i’d wing my way there right now to curl up at the foot of His bed (not a thought you are likely to hear me voice in a daylight moment). Yes, Master It’s been years since i heard or … Continue reading
Yesterday, Master corrected me in front of a group of people. He did not punish, He did not belittle, He simple corrected me. i do not like to be corrected… i wrote to Him later that i felt flushed at His words – uncomfortable at first. It took me a moment to accept them for … Continue reading
i created this identity… this wawbat. Into her i permitted the me that i like… the me that gave me joy… the me i hoped to be. From her i attempted to banish the fear i felt in my everyday life, the past mistakes that i was punishing myself for, the limitations that my god … Continue reading
This past weekend, i was cleaning and i moved the kitchen storage unit in front of one of the windows to discover this poor fellow behind. Having been passed over for dinner, he was about the business of becoming a plant. His determination was admirable. i fished him out, handed him to K and pronounced … Continue reading
