I grew up to the music of Karen Carpenter, Nat King Cole, and Johnny Mathis. Sprinkled in around them? Ridiculous Spike Jones and sad Jim Reeves. Lots of classical music served as the backdrop as I read from the shelves of my father’s study. At grandma’s there was Lawrence Welk and on the rare occasions … Continue reading
When she was somewhere around 4 and proudly learning that red and yellow make orange and green is the product of yellow and blue, my spawn had a verbal beat-down with a classmate over the color of her skin. On the way home, she told me she was gray and asked for confirmation. I laughed … Continue reading
Last night, I stumbled… metaphorically speaking… upon a decades-old crack in my pavement. It seemed like the tiniest split in the earth’s surface at first but it widened and its chasm felt too deep… too dark… she asked if I was okay and all I could say was, “I will be.” And I was, after … Continue reading
A friend posted this image to facebook today. I’ve seen it in my feed more times than I can recall (in one form or another). I’ve often had thoughts upon seeing this “quote” attributed to Buddha. I’m going to let those thoughts out today (running wild) because I don’t think they’re wrong (at least… not … Continue reading
When an individual, a sect, a clique or a nation hates and despises another individual, sect, clique or nation, he or they simply do not know the objects of their hatred. Ignorance is at the bottom of it. Paul Harris I am just about fed the fuck up with hate these days… I’m up to … Continue reading
Today marks the one year anniversary of an accident (not mine) that involved a new friend. I saw M’s post today about the impact of that day (wow) and I reflected on this last year of mine. Good Lord! Such changes to experience. We all swirl about in this “thing called life” (nod to the … Continue reading
This is crazy warm hot weather for April in Ohio. Ah, but it is pretty, certainly, and ripe with promise. Spring. It’s my second favorite season, so I’m not unhappy about its arrival. Got my girl by my side and I’m above ground. Sure, the world is going to hell in a hand-basket some days, … Continue reading
You know HOW you know you are with having a regular old-fashioned INTERACTION? When people forget to take pictures! S was just commenting tonight that we didn’t get pictures at her birthday party. We didn’t take a group shot, or a shot of her opening gifts at home or cards there. There’s no photo of the … Continue reading
It is perhaps the pain that takes me there tonight. It’s 1990 or is it 1991? I’m a young wife and new mother. My husband is deployed in Desert Storm… I am his wife. With him gone, I am alone with the spawn. I am his wife. His. Then. I am her mother. Always. There’s a … Continue reading
Been awhile since I posted. I got a cold and then something else and then… something extra nasty. I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but whether it is simple coincidence or magick, the fact remains: I felt worse and worse until I decided to feel the fuck better (and had plenty … Continue reading
