Living and Loving
When K had cancer, everything I knew about life and love and being a parent went out the window. I did not believe that it was possible for me to feel more than I already felt for her, but those two and a half years spent in treatment radically changed the way I saw everything. During the darkest moments, when she was whittled down to skin and bones and could barely walk, this song took on special significance. “You walk past me, I can feel your pain…” Oh, how I wept when this song played. Watching her lose her hair, seeing her body turn against itself… “You’re still you… after all, you’re still you.” It was K -her spirit and her strength- that carried us all through those long days and nights. “I look up to, everything you are… and in this cruel and lonely world, I found one love…”
And she was still her, and she is still her… My sweet K, the most precious gift I ever received and my greatest gift to the world.
No child has ever fought harder and no mother has ever been prouder.
I cherish every day we have together. She (of course) doesn’t know this blog exists, but I share this part of myself with you for one reason and one reason alone: To remind us all that our time on this plane of existence is short and sweet… and we should cherish the people sharing that time with us.
Your words changed this song for me completely. I had no idea. We meet people and know them quite a while sometimes not knowing the problems they have encountered because people don’t volunteer that they have problems. You really impress me, Wawbat. Thanks.