There. Said it.
bat is not a shark.
The fact that i can affect that persona is a testament to acting skills, perhaps, a bit of bravado…but little else.
i realize that we all come into this world alone.
We leave the same way.
Ah… but while we are here -damnit – we connect (if we’re lucky) and i struggle with attachment…
i struggle with wanting to be in the moment… to remain “unattached” inasmuch that i’ve learned that attachment can be unhealthy.
i have no desire to be codependent and i’ve no desire to elicit that feeling in others, but here i am… warmed oddly by the thought that there is someone out there that wants to be here… and aware that i am here wishing to be there…
i know that it is silly to feel like i can keep anyone safe… to keep anyone from harm… but still… here i am… happily twisted up in the “i need you” of this precise moment in time.