“Good morning, slave” flashes across my screen. i smile. i hold the phone in hand marveling at the warm flush i feel… until the screen goes dim. i frown. i wake the phone back up and smile again. He is beautiful to me and i am enjoying learning Him… complicated Creature that He is. i … Continue reading
Monthly Archives: February 2014
I AM
In the biblical story of Moses and the burning bush, Moses is minding his own business, working for his father-in-law, dontchaknow (tending the flock) and angels set a bush on fire. That is an attention-getter to be certain. Of course, if i saw a burning bush, i’d be dousing it with whatever water was handy, … Continue reading
your distant devil must be draggin’ you along
Today… this week… this time…this place… this now… is all changing. i’m changing. Master is going through changes. A dear friend is also going through major changes and i am wishing i could be more present on her path but my footing on my own is tenuous at best today. i’ve got some shit going … Continue reading
without you
It’s a favorite time of day, but always a bit sad… when the halls begin to empty and my colleagues have scattered to meetings or appointments or errands or lovers… whatever it is that waits for them must be sweet indeed the way they slip out and race off to it.. It is quiet and … Continue reading
signals
i’m eating hard-boiled eggs alongside a roasted grapefruit sprinkled with coconut sugar. i’m recalling quiet conversation punctuated by GingerGingerGinger. i’m listening to this: Peter Gabriel’s Signal to Noise (Live) Continue reading
my what big eyes you have…
… the better to see you, my dear my hand sunk into the chest, as if through the flesh, swallowed up in a soft warm nothingness and everythingness. i was uncomfortable at first… i recoiled… i had to force myself back in – back open – and then it felt like a gift; the offer … Continue reading
yoni
Because of the narcolepsy, i can experience some interesting reality-meets-fantasy moments. They tend to happen when i’m either exhausted or in a place where i am not being stimulated; they can come when i am totally calm, still, and relaxed. i took a shower about an hour ago and had one of those such moments. … Continue reading
i’m willing to fall
The soundtrack of my life this morning (i’ve posted this song before but it’s hauntingly beautiful to me this morning) k.d.Lang (Hush Sweet Lover) Hush sweet lover, hush, and gently hold me in your trust Lay down your walls, let me love you with lust Hush sweet lover, hush, and gently fold me in your … Continue reading
a dying plant provides nice tension
i found a good therapist… strange enough to hold my interest… with a personality that is sufficient to engage with me. Ah, but i do find it challenging… i have to resist the urge to spar with him… to battle him. i often feel almost compelled to do so – it would be fun but … Continue reading
