i have heard it said that a Master cannot truly be a Master until He has mastered Himself.
i believe this to be true.
i’ve seen my fair share of Doms and Tops that assume superordinate roles yet who are not “Masters” (as i understand the term) whether they choose to preface their monikers with the word or not. Subordinate types aren’t immune to this… i’ve seen people call themselves slave with as much emotional investment as one makes in ordering a Caramel Frappuccino. That’s all well and good… to each his/her own, but the term “Master” means something significant to me… as does “slave”
i’m thinking on this today… but from the other side. If Master/slave relationships are true power exchanges… if a slave wishes to give true power over to a Master… is that even possible if the slave has no mastery or sense of ownership first? If i have no sense of mastery in my own life… if i do not own my own life or actions… if i am not responsible for my life… do i have anything to give? i guess, in a nutshell… the question is: how can i give away something that is never been truly mine?
i struggle a great deal with the language of power exchange. It’s a curse sometimes… to over-think… to get tangled up in the language. Still, the language is important. Our ability to convey our emotions and thoughts to each other in a meaningful way is one of our defining human characteristics.
The word Master… the word slave… these are so potent and so packed with meaning. i wish to own the language and to use it without reservation. i have seen what Master looks like… i have seen what His slave looks like… both are beautiful and powerful in their own right.
It is, perhaps, hubris… thinking that a level of perfection should or even could be achieved… some magical threshold that a person could cross that makes them “good enough” to be Master or “worthy” to be slave. Perhaps there is no “perfect” time when these roles should be assumed – maybe people grow into them?
This is a great struggle for me… the language… deciphering what it means to me and to others… and honoring its potency. Using the language without cheapening it in any way… this is important to me.
i find the language morphing often now in my thoughts and speech… organically… yet, i wish to say it… to hear it… without surprise.
i wish to feel it.